MUSINGS

Yeah, no one gave me them memo, today was supposed to be Monday part deux....*Thanks guys!* **shrug grin**.   It really wasn't bad, just a bit busy and kind of odd right up to my 5:30 flying run to deliver a "hot" block.  That is, an engine block that we did fast fast to get it back to the customer.  Tired, dirty, cooling down....but strangely satisfied with my life.  Yes I still want desperately to have a different career, i.e., I want my own store but I know that will come in it's own time.  I stopped by the store to see my ole man before I headed home to my girl.  I giggled at someones bad vehicle references, talked shop and leaned.  I was later told, I'm the "cool girlfriend"....and to be perfectly honest, I take that as a pretty high compliment. I often as my fellas, "what would ya'll do if I was prissy??", usually the answer has something to do with me not lasting long.  There's something that goes with being a woman who can

I'm up, in my kitchen, thoughts all over the place....running from one end of my little skull to the other.  "I signed her papers tonight, like a good mom.....I am grateful for the friends I have......I am on a long (much needed) leash with my fella......should I be in bed?? That's where he is.....Taco Bell is going to be the death of me.......I honor this man so much, and I am convinced he's heaven sent....." yeah something like that. I have a friend who said "if", instead of "when" in regard to her engagement.  I'm not going to get into too many details, because I haven't asked permission to talk about it any wheres else.... but it got me to thinking.  See, I was married once before (yeah yeah I know, Everybody already knows that), but I mean, I had a small wedding once before.  I also planned an elaborate one years prior to that.  That one fell apart at the seams.  I got so disgusted trying to plan my wedding, I looked at the at t

Two things I do not discuss in mixed company is politics and religion.  But for the sake of story tellin', I will lend a little glimpse of my adventure this past weekend.  I went to Alabama with a wonderful new friend I made from Hammond.  It wasn't just a friendly visit just to get out of town, it was a much needed spiritual retreat.  See, with all the goings on in the last 5 years or so, I lost a lot of my faith.  This was compounded by losing people in my life that were important to me and by the anxiety I have carried around for so very very long.  It's been easy for me to put most or all of the heartbreak I have encountered on my ex.  This is not entirely accurate.  It was simply easy.  Yes, of course our divorce broke my heart.  A person cannot live with someone for over a decade and not feel something intense for that person.  However, the true catalyst for my loss of faith actually came when a long time friend called me out for something that was actually a misint

Paganism or simply country life?  Or could it possibly be both.... I'm as out of the broom closet as I'm ever going to be.  Those who know me well, know my religious affiliations and know why.  As my daddy would put it, I've been to hell and back, yes I am Very sure there is a God.  My personal interpretation of that God and how I connect with said Deity is my business.  That being said, it hit me tonight what was flying around in my head recently.  I was raised deep in the woods in a small community.  We are in the bible belt and in my particular case, my family was one of very few Catholic families there.  Our way of life out there was and still is to a point, a simple country way.   I don't know many who are not superstitious or who don't use a Farmer's Almanac...well, religiously.  My grandmother would not do the following:  rock a rocking chair with no one in it, it brought bad luck down on the whole house; walk under a ladder, bad luck; put a hat on any

I had a blog all started up in my head last night, but as I sit this afternoon, I can't remember what was flying around my head then.  I know what's in my head right now though.  I have always had a fear of the government.  I watch movies in which the country has undergone some type of war or over throw, and I actually begin to wonder when that's going to happen...not if , when.  I read articles about the radicals in public offices and what they would like to do with our country and the people within.  I read posts on social websites about how local school systems regard certain children, and I've seen first hand how strict they can be.  Where I live has the most strict truancy laws I've ever encountered in a public school system, and this is not a big city.  How far are we willing for it all to go?  As a people that is.  What's going to be that one thing that pushes us over the edge and has everyone saying, "get out of my personal life".  I don'